There’s a guy I know,
And he sits around all day getting mad,
Or he works at some store or wherever he can get a job
And then he goes out at night running.
He looks for fights; he looks for trouble.
He’s crazy, and he’s angry
He’s never been in a stable relationship.
He starts dating girls; then he starts to agonize about their past boyfriends
Or over thoughts that he’s not good enough for them
Or they’re not good enough for him,
And he starts to break them down and drive them away.
I tell him he has low self-esteem
I tell him not to worry about the things he worries about
But it only gives him more things to twist over.
He tucks a knife into his running shorts
And then he’s off into the night, running all year around,
In summer heat or winter rain,
He goes for hours.
Sometimes he comes back and you can see he’s been fighting.
Some car driven across a driveway, and they don’t give way to him
Or some teenager yelling something at him out the window of a car
While it’s parked at a red light,
Or someone won’t get out of his way.
Most of them regret doing it when he loses it,
Sometimes he finds guys just as angry as himself.
One day, he’ll stab someone
And he’ll go to jail.
I wonder: what’s he got to lose anyway?
A refrigerator full of beer
And some poetry books.
That’s all he has.
He writes poetry sometimes too
His writing is good, but that’s not enough.
He’s a mad dog, tearing at his own fur.